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october update

I’ve had so many ideas for blog posts lately. I think that with the season’s change here in the PNW I’ve had a change too. I am feeling the deep seeded need to draw a firm line in the dirt between myself and my family. This line will change over time. Times of family illness and emergency will call for adaptation but for the most part I’m in desperate need to step away from being so meshed.

I’m ready to break free.

free dutch oven cookbook

for those who cook outside or long to

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back to bus life

Hello Dear Readers,

Things have been really upside down this year with my stepfather’s illness. He has been in and out of the hospital with heart related issues and we don’t know how much longer he will be with us. That took a lot of getting used to.

When there is something going on like that life gets put on hold. Right now he is stable and we have, pretty much, adjusted to our new life.

In the meantime the bus sits. I’ve been home only for an hour or so, not counting sleep. Winter is coming and I had to make a choice … either take the time and do something, have another winter that is pretty rough, or move into mom’s house.

I can’t do the latter. I try and try to wrap my head around it and I can’t. i try to wrap my heart around it and there is just no going there. I love living in Lindornea too much. I also love having my own space and not having to worry about me and my dog disturbing a household of people who are ill.

So, the rest of August I will be getting ready to spend September on the bus. I only hope that life lets me. If it doesn’t then that will just have to be dealt with.

I’m excited about having what I want done accomplished. My brother has said he will help me get started. His time is really precious with job, family and all the time and money he is putting into mom’s house. He did buy some laminate flooring for the bus :O) and that was super nice of him. He got a good deal on it at the Rebuilding Center … he said it was 91 cents a square foot.

No matter what store i am in, if they have a camping section I always visit. Yesterday I was at Bi-Mart and I found a set of levels for RV. You put one at the front of the RV (or in my case bus) and one at the end and then with some quick, first grade math, you can figure out what tires need to be risen how much. I’m thinking about setting concrete under some of the tires to help give it stability. The front has settled, which is to be expected since the engine is so heavy.

Now I don’t have to do a lot of guess work (I do not do “level” well, I just do not have the experience) and this takes all the guesswork out of it.

So, I am happy.

I know I’ve said these things a hundred times but it is time for me to put my foot down, not only with my family but with myself and make sure that I take care of myself.

http://www.nif.org.in/exercise_machine

Sorry I STILL have not figured out how to embed links.

25 February

Well, there is not much to tell except we are having an early spring. I do feel bad for those on the East Coast … and if it were me in the same situation I think I would be at wits end by now trying to take care of the folks, farm and home. Winter is hard enough with everything with out adding harsh weather. I know I had a very rough December and I was expecting some customers to come by and I ended up calling them on the phone, bawling my eyes out because I was at witts end.

The writing job is going well and I like it. It takes a lot of discipline to write an article every day. Sometimes I just don’t have it in me and I am not writing when I am tired because it is counter productive. The article always gets sent back with lots of bonehead mistakes.

GARDEN:
I have spent a lot of time today making little paper pots to start my plants in. I am starting green and red chard, lots of parsley because it dries easily, is one of the herbs I am studying and also it is good rabbit food.

Other herbs I am starting: calendula, white sage, mother wort, st johns wort and more. Those are just the ones I’m planting right now.

There are peas, radishes and beets already planted in the garden. The mice are in the peas already so I am going to put out bait and I am going to put some tule? tull? you know that wedding veil stuff … on the beets and radish bed to keep the birds and bugs off of it.

I moved the ewes today into the upper pasture. They will start lambing really soon, perhaps even tomorrow. I have found that if I feed them their hay before 11 am then they will lamb either in the morning or in the day. It is a scientifically proven fact, but right now they care more about spring grasses then alfalfa hay.

For the first time in years I put them in the horse pasture. It is not a good idea to do that with lambs but with ewes it is okay. There is always a risk with coyotes, but ewes are less likely to be attacked. My girls are fine and it bought me some time.

This year I did not put the ram in until October 1 and it has turned out to be a really good idea. I was able to stretch out the winter pasture fairly well and I still have hay left over to get through until the grass really starts to grow. I was out checking one of the shorter fields and it is growing nicely.

I realized this morning that I will need to sell all but 10-15 of my girls this summer. It makes me really sad and I try not to think about it. I will keep my 6 yearling ewes, some pets, and then four or five lambs from this year. It is going to be hard hard hard. I am watching my step father fade in his activity and I will have to step up more on that end and will have less time for playing with my critters.

Chickens and rabbits are doing fine. I am getting lots of eggs and I have two new litters of baby rabbits that are doing very well. I had a problem with rats this winter… but now that they are gone things are better.

Oh, I forgot. The propane lantern has worked out very well after all. That leaves me more electricity for other things and now most nights I just use the lantern and leave the batteries topped off. I am hoping that I will be able to get Wi-Fi down to the bus. That will be optimal. I would love to be able to work from home, even if I had to walk over to the window and hold the laptop up while the pages loaded *LOL*

My cat, Shadow, is the queen of the bus. I decided that the other two cats could live outside 100% of the time after they started spraying everywhere. One starts and then the other … *sigh* I felt bad doing it but I’m telling you I was so tired of coming home at night from working all day to a very stinky home. The boys are still around and they have lots of places to live around here. THe solar shed is open and I have cat beds in there and there are several barns and other places. In the meantime Shadow has not left the bus in days and for the first time in years she is putting on weight, in a good way. If she never leaves again it will be fine with me. She is 9 this year and that is pretty old for a feral farm cat.

That means my Molly Dog has been gone for 9 years and if Buddy Dog was still with me he would be 9 this year.

Boom is doing great. She is starting to really work off leash. I think that Border Collies get better with age and she has started to really get it. It was hard because I am not a teacher and she came with sooo many bad habits. She now herds cattle like a dream AND sticks to the cattle and does not decide to take off and go to the neighbors or jump over the fence and go and herd the sheep. She is still far too fast for the sheep though. Jake is Jake and his love for me is amazing. He patrols all night long, and infact I have to tie him up if I want uninterrupted sleep. He is really good at learning how to do tricks and we are working on learning some fun ones.

Okay, I’m getting sleepy so I’ll close this.

Thanks for reading 🙂 ~Lindy

21 February 2010

Here on the west cost we are having an early spring. The weather is glorious. I know that tortures many in other parts of the US. My friend Judy, who lives in Delaware, for example has two feet of snow. I find it amazing. To tell you the truth I am happy for me. Winter is so very hard here with the animals, chores, wood heat and so forth. It is a common time for illness, especially for my parents. My step dad has congestive heart failure and he was hospitalized once this past winter, we went to the ER another time, and he is having more trouble all the time keeping the water off, hence the congestion. We will see what comes. I’m not going to worry about it too much and spend as much time with them as I can so that I have no regrets.

I recently reconnected with a friend who used to be my neighbor. She lived closer to Lindornea than anyone, not counting mother’s house. I had daydreams of walking through the pasture to go to her home for tea and a visit. She was always there and I didn’t go. Now she lives further away and I miss her and think about her often. That is a regret that I can reconcile.

I do regret not spending more time with my Cowpa, but that was a different time and I barely knew, even in my early 20’s, how to carry on a conversation, especially with someone who I had very little in common with. Now we have more in common because I am on the land, but now it is too late. It just was not the time, but I live on land that used to be his and walk in his footsteps and this helps keep me grounded. He was as strong as an oak.

My real regret though is I thought I would have had more time with my cousin Rose. She died when she was in her very early 20’s and left behind a young son who was too young to remember her. I always thought we would have more time to get to know each other and do things. I have another cousin who is also one of my best friends and I need to spend more time with her.

My parents are good people. They were not perfect parents, but they really tried their best. I am working on putting the bitterness behind me from things that happened but compared to what some have been through the years after my mom and stepfather got together were near idyllic despite the fact that we spent a lot of years literally destitute. We take care of each other and that is important because life isn’t easy.

I guess that I am making a list of probable regrets so that I can life a life with out them. A life with no regrets, that is one way to get yourself out of your comfort zone.